Archive for November, 2001
long absences again…
It isn’t that I have nothing to write about, sometimes I come here, to add to this, and can’t think of how to say what I wanted to say.
The big project is all but finished, it should be live in a few days. Which is good because I have suddenly become ill, and no-one knows what it is. On Tuesday last I started to lose feeling in my right hand, and my face and felt as if I had had anaesthetic. I’ve had a week of trips to doctors and various advice from all and sundry and the numbness is still there. Not as bad but I still can’t judge hot and cold with my right hand, and something feels just not right.
I’m trying not to stress, but until I know exactly what is causing this its a bit scary. I am being referred to the neurologist – at least I might get a brain scan and then I’ll have proof that I do indeed have a brain!
Other news… I’m going to be doing a course with the Open University. Starting in February I’ll be studying World Religions and working towards a BA in Humanities with History and Religious Studies.
I eventually got the Linux Box working, its now whirring away happily in the corner running Debian (Woody) and KDE 2.2 and is actually less noisy than it was when running Potato which must be a good sign (it’s certainly good for my sleep!)
The end is in sight
I know how Zeldman feels. I feel like I have had my chair welded to my bum for the last month. This big project is almost complete though, and I’m pretty pleased with it. I should be pleased with it…
I’m not someone who has ever wanted to be ‘good enough’. I’ve always wanted to be better, to learn more. I tend to surround myself with people who are better, people I can admire… and while this is helpful in that I learn from those mentors – it also means that I see my triumphs as less than worthy.
When I look back, look back 5 years to the Rachel who didn’t know how to send an email, then I allow myself to feel proud. Then I’ll go back to beating myself up for not ‘getting it’ and look to the next thing that I just have to learn how to do.
our past is always with us
The Internet Archive – you will not believe the number of sites indexed by this site. Type in your own domain, or a favourite site.
Fascinating, and cool because they have indexed all sites – not just the big names. Just when you thought that design horror you created three years ago was gone for good!
The Future Independent Web
Lots of interesting writing being posted at Independents Day – Celebrating the independent web.
Speaking of good writing, I’m currently reading “Where Wizards Stay up Late – the origins of the internet”, totally fascinating, documenting a period in history that is within my own lifetime yet seems so distant from the net as we know it today.
Trying to work
…at 9 am this morning, some workmen turn up, put a generator outside my window and proceed to drill into the wall of the flat above me. This is really helping me work….
My Linux box is still resolute in its refusal to allow me to configure XFree86, the horrible thing is sat there, happy in itself in preventing me from using kde… its going to find itself turned into a firewall very soon if it doesn’t co-operate!
